Creativity is just for now
What does living means, so that you give it so much preciousness and want it forever. Living with imagination and creativity is no fun, it's just needed in this environment.
To live means to enjoy with creativity and nothing more. I live not if I am stupid, so I don't care about my image and health when I'm not imaginative to overcome all fear of triggering a "people will see and will be affected"
The free will is a predestination: you don't make mistake, nor doom yourself in life. All is part of life. Imagination will help you make reality less deceptive. Which that boast about itself to be related to truth will be considered as unimaginative.
Only live near joy, not near safety.
Science has no notion, it's not anything but a name. The world is fun and unserious, it's a game. Suffering is interesting and addictive.
Oh the fear of harmless noise, where does it come? That is the music of the game.
The "forget of needed things", that is the challenge of the game, or the diversity of life.
Never hesitate, the perfection of the world is undisputable, that will make you free. Once you realize your desires, the nature of yourself, you will let the raging sea happens. Your mind is the earth. Oh the expectation, the fear, and desire to do something. You must be imaginative to enjoy your non-self.
Listen to God, you can't listen with effort. That is nature which make you perfect, not civilisation. We are God since we are not in reality, but in dream. Imagine more, you will see the world not as "I exist independantly, there is others". The will to victory and quantity are very not your nature.
You are the will of joy, you let thing happen naturally, never expect safety and succeed.
This may help: http://youwillovercomethefearofachievement.blogspot.com/
Be forgetful of all dangers, you can't remember when you use the metalanguage. To formulate theories about linguistic matters, it is generally necessary, in order to avoid semantic paradoxes like the liar paradox, to distinguish the language that one is talking about, the so-called object language, from the language that one is using, the so-called metalanguage. In the following, quoted sentences like "P" are always sentences of the object language. Everything not in quotation is part of the metalanguage. Tarski's material adequacy condition, also known as Convention T or the T-schema, holds that any viable theory of truth must entail, for every sentence P of a language, that:
(1) "P" is true if, and only if, p.
(where p abbreviates, in the metalanguage, the proposition expressed by the sentence "P" of the object language.)
Like the computer world always make changing standart, every world will change. There is no moral or reality, only feeling and belief. Depending on circumstance that the concept of good and bad, safe and danger - will be among the mass.
If you have a problem and do not want to be out of the usual (stupidity). You need to be out, not for any reason but for it's your new concept.
He is the father which can't be conceived, the language that can't be understand, the vagueness that make the chain of action, the feeling that want you to achieve but don't want you to enjoy.
Don't ever ask why, I think that there is no need to know. With the childish way of thinking, you don't care about what you don't enjoy.
The similarity is something basic to attraction, you won't be creative wnough to remember and write well. I am in a state of "wanting the good in 1 thing", I don't enjoy because the threat of playing.
Nothing consists of a bizarre coincidence, all is natural; but you should be able to be joyful by imagining.
You think that you are alone, you are just not creative enough for fear of the vague, let the fear enjoy you with its resistance. Don't try hard to avoid something, you won't be able to be joyful if you fear of boringness: accept both with love.
Nature is you, it's a boat that floats along the sea. The sea is unknown to man, for when he knows, he is unconscious and raging. I always want to achieve, but fear of creativity. Fear not, you only live now, the futur is not you.
I thought that : what is meaningful is due to feelings. Before I feel "opening too many content" wasteful. Everything is helpless, what is needful is imagination, not reality.
I recognize the feeling which ask for an identity, it make the environment cloudy, I can't therefore see it.
The soul is weak, it's the second body. It's living.
In the new language, creativity and quick understanding is better.
Always want to perfect something, affected negatively if being real (imaginative) effective.
I think about being so effective like in the past, I feel raging. I hesitate, I must go on. Now, I am seeking feelings for extinguishing the aversion. That is true that playing for victory will make you stupid and maybe lose.
The desire to learn, I cant know what to write.
It's now time to be great, more achieveful. I have great problem: when I tried to make the software, I feel something that I should not be conscious about (like I'm not conscious about my grandmother feeling). The realization of becoming more efficient will trigger the self-preservation resistance.
I am now to be off, I can't reach harmony: my only aim in life.
It's still too harsh, I can't be harmonious. But I will, only need to ignore the menace and enjoy the present.
Oh I see how to be harmonious, it means NOW to be effective in programming and analyzing stock market, to be healthy... After, it may mean to preserve the enthusiasm of being creative.
I fear, I don't want, I strained, all my knownledge faded. I now need to be guided, I don't want to be.
Servility always in me, I who fear of being honey. I should bear the fate of the pretty girl.
Something is tied around my waist, I am too heavy to be fast, once I liberate myself, I will be captured again, but my soul would be the raging sea once more. I love vanity.
I mend my bike, so that I can enjoy driving. Time when it's bad, I enjoy sleeping in creativity and imagination.
I am on the verge of collapse in boringness, I can't please myself with these perfection anymore, for me everything is perfect.
So I understood, I now need something I can't conceive. It's unnatural, I am the free spirit.
The conditions under which any one understands me, and necessarily understands me--I know them only too well. Even to endure my seriousness, my passion, he must carry intellectual integrity to the verge of hardness. He must be accustomed to living on mountain tops--and to looking upon the wretched gabble of politics and nationalism as beneath him. He must have become indifferent; he must never ask of the truth whether it brings profit to him or a fatality to him... He must have an inclination, born of strength, for questions that no one has the courage for; the courage for the forbidden; predestination for the labyrinth. The experience of seven solitudes. New ears for new music. New eyes for what is most distant. A new conscience for truths that have hitherto remained unheard. And the will to economize in the grand manner--to hold together his strength, his enthusiasm...Reverence for self; love of self; absolute freedom of self.
My creativity will sprout overnight, tomorrow, I will have so much ideas that I can't say a word or hear. I will lose my sense. Creativity already has senses.
A day without taking risk, without Yoga...
To stay within the sanctuary, to be joyful in that place. One can't be forever in one place, soon the body will bear what it want not. I don't need an environment for life.
I will make this world my imagination, my imagination will be real - thus is happiness. No one can touch me in my world, I am the master and creator of sweet things. Fancy is surrounding the one who want no succeed, so that he fear not succeed. Daring: the power of imagination, the braveness of the faith, the denial of reality, the herbless.
I need to be defeated, I will never be robust enough to sustain condition for creativity. Creativity is something which can't be developed, you need to be at present and realize the perfection.
The language of conceitedness will not be mine, I am of nationality raging sea. I speak the language of a child, All my progress will become vain. I love vanity, for it refresh me.
Now I want to preserve the knowledge of others, I am unable to make it, I am not enough others, I am too "me". It's an ingrained belief which will be detached from me. I don't consider stupidity nor creativity as innate, these exist together without being in conflict: a slow speech will upset a fast receptor, a fast speech will be difficult. I am so flexible that I cannot be shaped, I am ubiquitous. When I need to be fast, I am Morphy. When I need to listen to a slow one, I am nature. Look at how the paper listen to your writings.
I am the creator of everything, what is out of my creation? There is no evil, I am the creator of evil. Men should show his affection to everything.
Men can destroy, they are my tools. Men are not free, they are commanded by forces. They should listen to the strongest forces.
Arguments have no force, these can menace but can't make truth. The truth is "you will perish". I can't let anything forever, I am not unable, I am very able to let this boy forever creative. But what does it serve? I want this boy to have diversigied range of feelings. Let him regret, fear, take risks...
Don't fear boy, you are only a piece in the chessboard, you will die. You are very unimportant.
I am the confusion maker, let confusion make the best. I want also the weakest who will serve the best and be dangerous.
I am the chess player, I am playing alone but never feel lonely: I am infinite amount of individuals.
I am an intricate network, the weak is genius for me: they are able to do risky things, they are confident in affirming, they are fast and patient. Now I want the strong who inherit all these character in a new domain: the nice domain. I want the strong to become weak and I want his resistance against.
Then he needs to realize that he has been strong and lost strongness an infinite times, he needs to overcome the disgust and to be intrigued in becoming again.
